slowing down

currently things are still going at a moderate pace. cool. i was previously so angry and down. i'm glad it ended and response was good. at least, it's hard work paid off. efforts appreciated.

then i had the best weekend with jr. till he had to leave for db again.. like tomorrow. urghhhh..

okay i'm gonna get some stuffs sent out and going to meet jr like now now now!! byeee!!

BEST..

I'M SO BUSY I DON'T EVEN HAVE FOR MY OWN LAYOUTS TIME IS ALREADY SO DAMN TIGHT AND YOU'RE ORDERING ME TO DO YOUR PART OF WORK AND YOU RAN OUT.

WINNER. YOU ALL JUST DON'T CARE ALREADY, DON'T YOU.

DAMNIT!!

FREAKING FUCKING PISSED OFF

WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK!!!

IF YOU FREAKING AS A *****ING FUCKING DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON?! THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW?!!! EVERYBODY TELL ME SAY DEADLINE IS SO DAMN TIGHT AND NOTHING IS CONFIRMED. DONT YOU GET IT THAT IT IS YOUR JOB TO MEET THOSE CLIENTS AND NOT ME!!! AND THEN WHAT?! I'M DOING YOUR PART OF WORK AS WELL?! SHALL I PROPOSE THAT I TAKE YOUR PAY?! WTFWTFWTF!! I JUST FEEL DAMN WRONGED WHEN U HAVE TO SHOUT AT ME. I AM JUST ASKING IF YOU ARE COMING TO THE MEETING WITH US RITE? AYE JUST FUCK OFF LA.

I MAY STILL BE A JUNIOR BUT I AM NOT UNDER YOU OKAY OKAY OKAY?! SO DONT JUST SHOUT PEOPLE ARD. YOU *****.

i dont know what to say anymore.

so demoralising and depressing.
and very very broke.

i have to eat wind very soon already.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH...

(designers is so totally not a glamorous job)

i made it!

and now i can strike off another "wish" off my wishlist!!

the 2nd achievement in this week - i've passed my driving test!! wahahahaha!! i'm still a little in shock. and my body is still aching from the run.

next phrase, probably time to take up yoga. maybe. :)

..andigowhee~

i completed my first ever 10.4km run!! wahahahaha. feeling damn proud of myself 'cos i'd never think i'm gonna make it. throughout, i almost wanted to give up. sun was rising and hot, and the u-turning point never appears!! grrrrrrr. (mommy and family used to bring me to thenewspaper 10km big walk(s) but i never ever finished walking.)

hehehe.. anyways, i have to confess though - technically, i was half-jogging + walking during the later half of the run. i was damn cui already lor! since the 6km zoo run in feburary, i haven been running that's why. i seriously think i have accomplished something big this year, so far. :D 'cos for those who knew me, i never never liked running.

it's the one who's currently in sand land, he who gets me moving and run run run. hehehe. and he's supposed to join in this run but was posted to (again) the sand land :( hence, my brother gets the chance to go for FREE. so how nice hor. haha..

btw, that's how he looked after his 15km. TOTALLY CUI. LOL!!


i was half-dead (legs aching so badly and head throbbing so hard i don't know why) when i got home and i took a really nice 2hr nap. then at later afternoon, i logged back into my twitter account and i saw this!! and suddenly i feel really happy and it's like..i'm so glad i went, i ran, and i completed. :) simply the best prize i get at end of the run. hee.. :P


for him, i am re-considering stanchart marathon at the end of 2009. hee.. i say re-considering 'cos i was complaining to my brother how tiring it was and i'm not gonna sign up for runs like this again! hahaha.. so, most likely i'll be going for a 10km again, that is if i'm signing up for it. :P i'm not yet a half-marathon material (i will die).

"gimme a break, a little escape"

i so desperately in need of a holiday. like seriously serious.
*sad sigh*

i don't even mind if it's flying to the sand land to see him right now..
just take me away.. (i miss him so damn much)

:(

bitter.

i decided to skip one dosage of the TCM. it's super bitter-ish, and it smells/tastes pukey. somewhat the rashes flares up even more only after i started the TCM. my face is not spared either already - looking red and patchy, and flaking like nobody's business.

WTH!!

i'm losing weight, looking so weirdly-thin. i'm constantly hungry and eating alot, really alot.. and yet..losing weight. i miss being the chubbier-me. abit fat, but happier.

i no longer have the luxury to eat everything i want. NO wheat, rice, shrimps, corn, soy, hazelnut. number one killer is shrimp, following by number two killer - wheat, which exactly means no bread no burger no noodles etc. HOW LIKE THAT?!! ROARRRRRRR!! i still eat my rice though, otherwise i would have fainted dont know how many times already. *sad sigh*

see, i dont go purposely on diet. but i just have to skip those i cant? so my skin conditions dont flare up.

not many would understand how sucky it is to have eczema.

it's really hell. concentration on work is bad. and it affects alot on my sleep as well. i used to be a so anti-coffee person, and now i'm an average 2 cuppa coffee per day addict.

work has been crazy too. the office just moved to the cbd area, the packing moving unpacking part, with hell lots of dust and dirt, just triggers the already-bad skin yet again. oh, and this SUPER HOT WEATHER here?!!?!!!! it's crazy. it feels like it's gonna burn and rip apart my skin anytime. anyway i so dislike the cbd area, it's so depressing. no food after 7pm, no aircon after 6pm. work is never-ending and i'm super stressed out. i've even lost control and broke down at work already. literally. i just couldnt help it.. :(

there's too much things going in my head. feels like it cannot hold anymore pressure. SIGHHHHHH.. past weeks have been just so bad. i'm simply hoping to have a short break, to go away. again, which is not really possible anymore, since i'm so broke already.

SAD.

enough said. too much complain and whines. sigh. i just wish i got more time, for myself and everyone. to also sort of pending pictures since jan09 and probably post some nice ones up soon.

okay. so the above explains my MIA-ness.


bye.

i'm significantly sleep-deprived

from SHAPE.

exactly. in fact i'm feeling insomniac these days..i wonder if it's work stress - how ever super tired and drained when i got home, i have difficulty falling asleep. and not to mention, it's particularly hot humid n stuffy, my rashes are visiting again. urghhhh..

i miss rainy days..

jr's currently in bali. he's probably diving down under 20m or deeper right now. i almost could be there holidaying too can. sigh. blame it on the bad clash leave period i had with 3 of my bosses. that's so unlucky!! what can i do..sadded. i badly need a holiday, like out of singapore, seriously.

then again, i hope i'm not working late today..

urghhh.. i wish i could be in bali, like tonight. i miss him.. :(

something to announce..

that is..
jr and i are engaged! :)))


today marks the first month of our engagement - since last christmas, and on my 24th birthday. :) earlier that day, he picked me up from home, and surprised me with a bunch of lovely tulips. hee.. at 2, we checked into our 3d2n holiday retreat at The Sentosa, had a divine spa treatment the whole of the afternoon together (feels like a mini-honeymoon already! hehe..), and he planned for me a surprise fusion-delish-dining at The Jewel Box (mount faber - a place that holds special meaning to us). he popped the question after we stood right back at the very exact location - where he used to bring me to right before we got together, and where he confessed his love and all to me..? hee.. *blush*



there may be no super perfect-romantica tactics used, or having the biggest diamond ring to boast about, however, to me, what jr had sincerely planned and given, the date time and venue, is yet the simplest, sweetest, meaningful-est and best-planned proposal that i received, and that's really enough. :)))

how ever can i thank god for sending such a precious gift like him to me? (i'm not follower of by any religion, but i'm still very thankful) hee..


we've then started to flip some wedding magazines, sourced for ideas from all over the internet, and eventually the venue for dinner and such. hee. it's so gonna be such a experience having able to plan for a-once-in-a-lifetime-biggest-event. so, if you're asking when and where..it's still a 'tba' (to be advised). thus, coming up there should be a 2-side-family-meeting for some discussions. oOoo so exciting!! hehehe.. (imagine my mom vs jr's mom, okay, suddenly that sounds scary..) hope till then we'll have some details to share when we got them. hee.


till then, keep sending love, and..

xoxo,

it's a series of events

i'm so lazy and tired, to write alot nowadays. so i'll just let the pictures do the talking and clean up this cobweb here. hee.




081108/qi's belated-birthday date




091108/15-mth-old yixi playing the notes




091108/"site-recce" to the sg flyer & marina barrage









151108/the day they [wenxin & marcus] tied their knot; a happy ever after








261108/sending our dear mrs.chang to the airport; a happy ever after in dubai




061208/a princess affair/amanda's 5th birthday party





231108/jr and me/before meeting the spencenies



061208/a self-obsessed shot/latest haircut





that's all folks. am super looking forward to christmas 2008. heeheehee.
till laters.

time for an afternoon nap.

14 days to Christmas..

..and my jr is still DING-DONGing between Bahrain and Dubai. =_=

SANTA please bring him home to me before Christmas. plueaseeeeeee!!

eFart

wahahahahahahhaha. okay. just for laughs. :P

GAP baby

..i didnt thought a mannequin was that interesting..